Freedom never smelled sweeter.

MY EXAMS ARE OVER OMG, LIKE FINALLY. I'VE WAITED A THOUSAND MONTHS TO ANNOUNCE THIS MOMENT.Haha, I remember how me and cm were so happy yesterday, we didnt know what to say to each other! I honestly dunno where to start cause i am stil quite lost for words. All i wanna say is that i have a &*(&#(@^& sleepin problem! i havent had a decent night of sleep since Alevel. Anyway,caught 2012 and the movie was AWESOMEEEEEEE :) :) gosh I love how the son and dad helped each other at the end of movie, it was so so heart warming and exciting at the same time!! Do you really think this would happen to us in another approximate 3 years time? I don't even dare to think. CM&J, please go and learn how to fly an aeroplane! (hahahaha) Okay, i'm turning in now. I'M SO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDD. So deprived of sleep!!!! Goshhhhh....

Sometimes making me wonder why am i the way i am. Some people find me nice, some people find me unfriendly and some people think this and that. Why must we live up to other pple's expectations, tell me why? Why must i force myself to change my attitude jus to match other pple's preference? And u knw wad, i think this is pretty fucked up. And for chris sake, all i can ask for is simple. If u hate me, pls don't act sneaky behind my back n put on a different mask infront of me. Though i rly appreciate ur effort for trying to 'act' . But i'll rather prefer u to show ur 'dislike' infront of me, at least i knw, n got the signal of 'hey-i-do-nt-want-us-to-be-frens' anymore.

Last night i laid in bed, restless n full of thoughts. I thought abt pple, i thought abt sch, i thought abt family, i thought abt wad i did with my life for the past 12 months. And i've come to realise tht i somehow lost who i am. I used to think i knew wad i wanted tht i had a plan for myself n tht i'm happy. But i've been lying to myself. Telling myself tht this depressing period is jus for awhile tht one day it'll end. And everyday jus before bed i tell myself 'tomo will be a better day' bt it never is.